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I love you so much Mamoudou❤️Thanks for reminding us that it is okay to not be okay.

This week I have been denying myself the ability to be present with the grief of witnessing one parent continuously hit rock bottom while the other parent attempts at a life of normalcy while also navigating life damaging bouts of CPTSD. What I’ve told myself for so long is, well, you’re okay so you just need to disconnect and detach a bit from the pain/suffering of your family because it is out of your control. But the truth is that even if I can’t do anything to change what’s happening to someone else or to stop their suffering, I deserve to acknowledge how fucking sad and heartbreaking that shit is. To watch my parents go through the shit that I’ve been in therapy about for the last five years, is an absolute mindfuck.

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